Give me a sign already!!

While commenting on One Little Fish's insight I had a mini revelation....(is that the right word?)

She talks about the messages the universe puts in front of us to help guide us through life's many conundrums; her messages come through music.

As I was writing about my envy for her insight it hit me! My messages come in different forms. I am still envious because only one form is clear to me:

Warning pop into my head, just in and out. Almost like a mini vision that is very easy to ignore and shake. There are two warnings that still haunt me for their clarity.

When I was about 8 years old my mother, step-dad, and I were moving into a new apartment. My mother had a beautiful antique mirror that she adored which hung over her dresser. We had hired movers to take care of all the furniture and most boxes. As the movers arrived I mumbled to my mother that the mirror will break. She gave me an odd, slightly concerned look, and continued down her to-do list as we were in a moving frenzy.

When we finally arrived at our new home, the movers were waiting with sad news - my mom's treasured mirror was broken. She just looked at me with a bit of awe. She still tells that story and takes extra precautions whenever I have a "feeling" about anything.

The second warning hit me just moments before my "lucky" (and only) car accident. I went to college about 75 miles from home. I would come in about 2-3 weekends per month to see my family and BF (same one!). This particular trip was right after my 21st birthday. It was the first Midwestern snow storm of the season - and my first winter as a driver. About 20 miles from home, while moving out of the left most lane, I hit a patch of black ice. I lost complete control of my car, spun straight across the entire FIVE lanes of oncoming traffic, and came to a stop after making-out with the guard rail. I call this my "lucky" accident because ... well FIVE lanes of traffic and not a single car hit me. Had they...this might be a VERY different story. I came out of it with only bad case of the shakes (from fear and shock) and I was close enough to home that BF was able to grab a cab to come rescue me and my car.

Back to the point...before all this happened, I knew it would. About 20 miles into my trip (30 miles before the accident) I was bopping along to music on the freeway at a lightning 40mph and I suddenly just froze in terror. I knew there was an accident on my horizon. I shook it off and kept on driving. I mean, what exactly was I supposed to do, turn around? I am a firm believer in destiny, I believe if I HAD turned around, an accident still would have occurred; and maybe it wouldn't have been as lucky.

When my mom heard my story post accident she just shook her head and said I shouldn't have been in such a rush, I didn't give "it" enough time to warn me. To this day, when I tell her about any feeling or "vision" or dream I have she begs me to take it to heart. But I try not to, because many times it is just a bit of fear or paranoia...this is why I need to figure out how else the universe communicates with me. Then maybe I could filter messages from fears and Law-and-order induced paranoia!